*Yesterday's Thought*
I'm getting ahead of myself,
I'm getting ahead of myself,
but I'm feeling pretty good today.
Pretty strong.
*Yesterday's* Intake :
4 Egg Whites = 64
1/2 scooped 100% Whole Wheat Muffin = 35
1/4 a serving of cream cheese = 17.5
15 Grapes = 30
10 blueberries = 7.5
1/2 scooped 100% Whole Wheat Muffin = 35
1/4 serving of PB = 47.5
1 cracker light PB spread = 10
1/2 Veggie Delight Sub = 230
Total Intake = 476.5
*Today*
Wow, 200 calories less
than what I started with
when I first started blogging on here.
That's encouraging.
Oh, and I went to the gym.
My legs were shaking
and felt like rubber when we left.
I don't feel it yet,
but I know I will soon.
Damn, I should have skipped on that sub,
but this WHOLE fiasco happened.
I was super hungry,
so I was bugging Wally to go to subway
he wanted to smoke,
but I told him I was getting light headed
so we went.
Then, the entire time,
he kept complaining
and complaining.
And my appetite went
right out the damn window!
Then, of course, he started getting pissed at me,
and pissed that I wasn't eating...
So I had to.
I didn't want to.
Took forever!
I just wanted to spit every piece out.
A lot of stress has been
removed from my life,
but seems to have been replaced by another...
I'm getting even harder on myself
because I feel so unwanted.
I can see how fat and squishy my butt is,
I can see the fat under my butt.
I can see the rolls on my tummy when I sit.
I hate it... All of it...
Even my arms,
which didn't bug me before
look like flabby grossness...
I wish there was a smoothie shop around here...
I think I'm going to stop by the
fitness shop and look for a good
additive that burns fat
and start making my own smoothies with it.
Fuck... I don't want to work today!
Next two days off though.
Apartment hunting!
That's what I need to do,
and go to the gym in the morning.
I need to start doing that.
Kicks up my metabolism for the rest of the day.
Ugh... Anyone reading,
tell me to get my shit together,
give me some advice how to do so or something!
Thanks :]
1/2 Veggie Delight Sub = 230
Total Intake = 476.5
*Today*
Wow, 200 calories less
than what I started with
when I first started blogging on here.
That's encouraging.
Oh, and I went to the gym.
My legs were shaking
and felt like rubber when we left.
I don't feel it yet,
but I know I will soon.
Damn, I should have skipped on that sub,
but this WHOLE fiasco happened.
I was super hungry,
so I was bugging Wally to go to subway
he wanted to smoke,
but I told him I was getting light headed
so we went.
Then, the entire time,
he kept complaining
and complaining.
And my appetite went
right out the damn window!
Then, of course, he started getting pissed at me,
and pissed that I wasn't eating...
So I had to.
I didn't want to.
Took forever!
I just wanted to spit every piece out.
A lot of stress has been
removed from my life,
but seems to have been replaced by another...
I'm getting even harder on myself
because I feel so unwanted.
I can see how fat and squishy my butt is,
I can see the fat under my butt.
I can see the rolls on my tummy when I sit.
I hate it... All of it...
Even my arms,
which didn't bug me before
look like flabby grossness...
I wish there was a smoothie shop around here...
I think I'm going to stop by the
fitness shop and look for a good
additive that burns fat
and start making my own smoothies with it.
Fuck... I don't want to work today!
Next two days off though.
Apartment hunting!
That's what I need to do,
and go to the gym in the morning.
I need to start doing that.
Kicks up my metabolism for the rest of the day.
Ugh... Anyone reading,
tell me to get my shit together,
give me some advice how to do so or something!
Thanks :]
