[33] Still Skinny!

Hey everyone!

Sorry I've been AWOL,

I've been worried that even by posting here,

this was becoming a trigger of mine,

but seeing as I'm fucking purging still,

and a lot unfortunately,

that isn't exactly true.

I'm trying to figure out wtf I'm doing.

Here's the gist of recent activity in my life:

1. Started My SAT Prep Classes [good]

2. Filling Out Applications For My Community College [Yay!]

3. Decided To Get My Hair And Tattoo Done [Amazing!]

4. Met Johnathan, my new little hook up [unsure...]

5 Crashed My Fucking Car... [Life=Derailed]

So now, I'm doing my classes online,

I have no way to get to Johnathan or anywhere

which leads to SERIOUS cabin fever.

I didn't have personal property coverage,

so I'm paying for the car out of pocket...

I don't think I will EVER buy another toyota in my life.

Wanna know why?

Because while I'm replacing the 

ENTIRE FRONT OF MY FUCKING CAR

the Honda Oddessey I hit has a mere dent in it's trunk door.

Whatever, the title of this blog is because I'd thought I'd gained

sooooo much weight after I stopped posting.

Apparently not,

I somehow managed to LOSE weight. 

106.0 lbs

That's insane!

Smiles for me.

But jebus... 

Not having  car after having a car is like...

hell.

Independence ripped from my fingers.

[I mostly go out at night,

my bike is broken,

and buses don't run late enough.

I'm not being lazy]

Thanks skinnybusiness  & tearsnsorrow

for your comments and suggestions. :]

Hehe, I'm bAAAAaaaaaack!

[29] Not Ready/Girls!Girls!Girls!

I don't want to get sick,

but I can't eat more than 

barely 500 calories a day

without having a purge freak out.

And it hurts my throat so much now.

I'm having my norm

of egg whites [64]

spinach [10]

but I can't finish my coffee [30].

I haven't even finished my eggs yet.

Total = 104

I got my naval pierced 2 days ago!

It's so cute,

and I'm having my tattoo drawn up for me.

Excited, I think it's going to be

a chest piece!

I think I need to see a therapist though,

dear god I'm SICK of feeling miserable.

I may talk to my step mother

about seeing my old therapist again.

I just can't get over this Wally shit.

I'm driving Kelsie crazy with me...

I get so jealous of them hanging out.

I'm being so insecure it's stupid.

I need to live MY life

and not fucking worry about other people.

Not worry about him.

Oh,

and there's this girl.

I think I want to be with a girl again.

Her name's Evie,

how fucking CUTE!

Anyway, I met her at my friend's

"Toy Party" haha.
She was really nice,

cute,

small,

tattoos,

and just gorgeous.

She works with my friend, Brittnay,

who's party we met at

and I asked Brittnay if Evie

was bi last night.

I made Britt SWEAR

never to tell anyone I asked,

but you know

who the fuck cares.

Everyone knows I'm bi,

and if she doesn't like me/girls

it's obviously not happening.

But still,

it makes we want to burst out

into a fit of nervous laughter.

Flirting and crushes are so much fun!

Anyway,

I guess that's what I've got for now,

we'll see how today goes.

And hi again everyone!

Hope you're all doing well!

:]